Bueno luego de un tiempo prudente para "enfriar" un poco este blog, he decidido volver a publicar algo. Se me ocurrió poner esta canción que me encanta (de la banda que me tiene obsesionado ahorita: Dream Theater) y cuya letra me conmueve mucho. La canción se llama "Repentance" y es la cuarta entrega de una saga e cinco canciones que cubren los pasos de recuperación del alcoholismo de los AA, proceso por el cual pasó el baterista de la banda Mike Portnoy, autor de la letra de la canción. La canción trata los pasos VII (arrepentimiento; el cual consiste en hacer una lista de toda la gente a la que se le ha hecho daño y estar dispuesto a reinvindicarse con ellos) y IX (Restablecimiento; tomar acciones concretas para enemendar el daño que se le ha hecho a estas personas). La segunda parte de la canción (aprox. minuto 5:45) trae frases dichas por diversos músicos, como Joe Satriani, relacionados con la temática de la canción y que a mi parecer le dan un tono más emotivo aún, porque son algo así como "confesiones" hechas por ellos que están simentadas en arrepentimiento. La parte final (Restitution) contiene las llamadas "12 promesas" que se les hacen a los que inician el programa de AA. En fin, sin más rodeos los dejo con la canción y la letra, espero que les guste...
Repentance
VIII. Regret
Hello Mirror, so glad to see you my friend
it's been a while...
Staring at the empty page before me
All the years of wreckage running through my head
Patterns of my life I thought adorned me
Revealing hurtful shame and deep lament
Overwhelming sorrow now absorbs me
As the pen begins to trace my darkest past
Signs throughout my life
that should have warned me
Of all the wrongs I've done for which I must repent
I once thought it better to regret
Things that I have done than haven't
Sometimes you've got to be wrong
And learn the hard way
Sometimes you've got to be strong
When you think it's too late
Staring at the finished page before me
All the damage now so clear and evident
Thinking about the dreaded task in store for me
A bitter fear at the thought of my amends
Hoping that the step will help restore me
To face my past and ask for forgiveness
Cleaning up my dirty side of this unswept street
Could this be the beginning of the end?
I once thought it better to regret
Things that I have done than haven't
Sometimes you've got to be wrong
And learn the hard way
Just when you're through hanging on
You're saved
[*Corey Taylor - "Until that moment, I'd never felt like I'd failed at anything...And I felt like I failed her...And I failed myself, and I failed my children...It's still really hard to deal with."
*Steve Vai - "I want to thank you for helping me to see my own selfishness and to tell you how regretful I am it has hurt you."
*Chris Jericho - "I'm sorry I didn't visit you in the hospital, Grandpa when you were on your deathbed. I'm sorry I didn't come to your funeral...I don't know if I was selfish or just too scared to face it. It's one of the biggest regrets of my life."
*David Ellefson - "I'm here to confess with you that what I did, was wrong... And I'm asking for your forgiveness..."
*Steve Hogarth - "The only unforgivable thing hauls itself out of bed, looks over my shoulder at the bloody English weather..."
*Joe Satriani - "I really regret not being able to see my friend Andy..."
*Mikael Åkerfeldt - "One of my best friends who's the godfather of my daughter, he asked me to sing or play something at his wedding, and I turned it down because I was busy and, I guess, too much of a chickenshit to do it...And I feel sorry for that, because it was a very very close friend of mine..."
*Steven Wilson - "So, I wanted to apologize to anyone that I've upset or offended.. by my words; it's just an opinion, but unfortunately, I tend to express it as a fact, and that's kind of arrogant. Isn't it?"
*Jon Anderson - "I think it's the betrayal...it still haunts me."
*Neal Morse - "I'm sorry for what I did back then... I was a different person. I really was and I'm so sorry. I wish it wouldn't have happened, but it did, and I'm sorry. Forgive me. I'm sorry..."
*Daniel Gildenlöw - "I guess I'm simply sorry for being me and not you. I so often wish you could be here with me to show me the way..."]
IX. Restitution
-If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through.
-We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness.
-We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.
-We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace.
-No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others.
-That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear.
-We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows.
-Self seeking will slip away.
-Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change.
-Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us.
-We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us.
-We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us - sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
You're only as sick as your secrets, but the truth shall set you free...
The truth is the truth, so all you can do is live with it.
(me encanta esta frase final, que ya no es del manual de AA, sino del corazón del tipo)
